Today is NO MOOD day. not in good sign today. i was fking tired. my room air cond is becoming a problem. i rather sleep without it. i freeeze to death every night.. it feels like the higher the temperature i put, the colder it becomes. my feet always freeze. i had a damnnn bad stomach ache this morning. i got gastric problem one la, even if i just eat. something wrong with me. feeling like something wrong with my lungs everytime gastric comes. no i dont wanna die so early.
I had a terriiible terrible dream few nights ago. made me think for so fucking many days. im so frustrated with myself. i have this problem with me, when i dream about something bad it can destroy my whole day. sometimes i can cry it out. sometimes i just keep it and suffer with it. this time i let it go. too bad nothing's working. :(
CNY is coming. $$ i dont really go house visiting. lol. dont know why. i think this time im flying to somewhere. heard school holidays for chinese new year only 3 days :( i might skip school. aiyoo everything is so messed up la.... dont know la. so stressed out. i need to go bath and start my 2 and a half hours tuition. today first day :O wish me luck!
I dont say it, i keep it to myself. its very obvious to tell what's in my mind. i tell u whats in my mind. everything u wanna know, whats in my mind abt you is always good sign. but whats deep down in my heart, its a secret you will never know. deep down i might be crying i might be happy, i might be crushed. i wont tell u straight in your face, but if u can see this i will tell u indirectly, every second, every minute , every hour im missing you. i never missed a second NOT thinking about u. I'm not a stupid stalker k? And you're never transparent to me. you will never be. why im like that it is because..........god knows, i know :) i love u like i always do, dont stop me!
-Alison Chow-
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