A l i s o n C h o w

No plans today. i'm home. thinking of what to do. my head is spinning. i cant sleep nicely this few days. i feel like i need to leave this place. i'm now really really really sad. back to emo la. im so confuse. im scared. My heart is sinking. facing depression..i really dont know what i can do. i dont blame anyone but myself. someone will understand what im trying to say. everything suddenly changed. so sudden. i cannot accept it. you cant just tell me like that. changed the way i think. changed everything. i cannot overcome this feeling. i cannot forget. even how much i want to. im having a very difficult time. its so hard to talk to you now. I really really wanna go back to the past. go back to where we start.. i wanna restart all over again. i dont wanna continue like this. i'm suffering here. i cant tell you. i cannot be free anymore. i cant talk to you like i use to. now whenever i talk to you i control. see i cannot go back anymore. learning to look forward. when i refuse to. Why so sudden?! why why why? i sleep with why-s. pls pls help me. pls change everything back to where it was. After what u said, now i keep thinking what i cant tell u and what i can. i keep controlling. even how much i wanna tell u. i just cant open my mouth anymore. everything changed. You dont talk to me like you use to. even the way u text me now is so different. This time, i cant open my mouth and decide. i too dont want you to decide. F PMR. i hope you see this. bcs i cant tell u myself. this hurts, hurts me badly. pls change back. i beg u. Pls dont do this to me.

-Alison Chow-