I really lost my apetite, i cant seem to find it anymore. only u can find it. morning breakfast, i ate a few spoons. and i couldnt take in anymore. i lied to my dad saying i have stomach ache. i feel guilty but i dont wanna eat anymore. i cant take in anymore.
Lunch, served rice on my plate. i made an excuse saying its to plain. i cant eat. and gave it to my dad. i felt like vomiting. I cant feel hungry anymore. i got no more heart to eat. my mum can see that i have no more heart to eat.
Dinner, ate steamboat. i seriously felt like vomiting before going in already. i know i cant eat. i know it already. i ate abit to not worry my mum..she didnt wann scold me in front of my father. so she purposely say my stomach got problem.
This is it. i feel that this is the end of me. i cannot stand myself anymore. I hate myself. I cant do it for you. even how much i want to do it for you. i'm sorry i cant. im so so sorry.
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