afraid

I'm afraid, afraid of what will happen in the future or even soon. im scared. my heart's beating really fast. i just cant accept anything negative to happen. yes i cant. so please dont do this to me? i dont mean to make you feel bad. but i cant do it this time. i want you to be happy too! but i'm sorry. if there is a pill which can heal the pain. i would take it to give you happiness. i'm sorry i didnt mean it.