i'm confused

I have PMR this year. and I have intermediate ballet exam this year. i'm still thinking whether i should take the exam or not. because if i take, i have to attend triple classes. Saturday, Sunday and Monday. will it be too stress for me? Wednesday and Thursday i have tuition. should i go for it? challenge myself? it looks reallly really stress. but i dont wanna waste a year of ballet too. can i jump grade? i stopped Piano bcs of PMR. PMR is a trouble maker. all my time crashed.

Oh baby boy, you're driving me crazy. i put hope in something so hopeless. ive done everything i can. its time to move on and leave u behind. i dont loose its just u. i love you like i always do, i love u with all my heart. but its not worth loving u anymore. its time to put u as number 2. you were my all time first priority, but sweetheart not anymore. what you said, drove me down. pulled my whole mind down. i never want u to be lonely and sad and all. seeing u everyday in school shakes my heart. makes me happy. and u know i never want u to forget me. but i cant stop u. time will come when i will completely get over u. im trying my best right now. i thought there was hope but...you deny it. deep inside i dont know but its what i know. i never thought of leaving u behind and dont care about u. but i cant. you dont see it that way in me. its just me. its unfair to me all this while. you use to be the one i can rely on, the one i could put trust on. the one i can depend on. you were my everything. you're like a hero. you solve all my problems. u help me through. its past tense. maybe in ur mind sets that we're never gonna be together anymore. but in my mind i dont say it. bcs im not god and i dont know what's the future. we'll see. 343 days. 1 year ++

-Alison Chow-